"For I know the plans I have for you," declares the LORD, "plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jeremiah 29:11

Monday, June 27, 2011

The Ride is Slowing Down...and I'm Jumping Off!

Beta #1: 61
Beta #2: 292


Could it be my time to get off of this horrible ride ?

This ride made me a stronger woman. I'll never stop praying for something that I think about every single day. When there is something I want, I will never stop fighting for it....no matter how hopeless it may seem.

Sunday, June 19, 2011

Five Days After

Today makes the fifth day since transfer. I'm feeling great! I'm staying positive and optimistic this time. I'm not feeling different really. I am having some twinges, tugs, and fullness here and there. It's hard not to be overly sensitive about every little feeling!

Immediately after Dr. S. transferred our two embryos, I felt some mild crampy twinges. They continued through the rest of Tuesday night and Wednesday off and on. Then, the tugs started. Hopefully, it was the embryos snuggling in!!! Oh, I hope so. The crampy twinges are still happening. I felt bloated most of yesterday, then last night, the heaviness/fullness/pressure started in my lower pelvis. That heaviness continued all night and has continued all day today. And I love it.

I almost took a home pregnancy test this morning because I thought it would be so amazing to give a positive test to K for Fathers Day. But, I talked myself out of it. I think it's way too early anyway, and a negative outcome would be discouraging to me at this point, even though I'm ready for whatever comes my way on Friday. K keeps asking me "how his little babies are doing," and today, Mom washed every bit of my dirty laundry! What a treat!!! Our washer went out a week today, so needless to say, I had a BIG PILE. She is the laundry queen! My new washer/dryer set will be here Friday afternoon. J is excited too and is looking forward to the big test on Friday.

This is going to be a long week.

Friday, June 10, 2011

Things People Say

I consider myself pretty tough. I try to give people the benefit of the doubt most of the time, especially when it comes to comments about being pregnant, getting pregnant, infertility, etc. I don't know if these injections are interferring with my tolerance level or what, which is one reason I've been more private this time with our treatment. I believe whole-heartedly that people mean well the majority of the time. And also, there is a big part of me that wants to be transparent about everything and share my joy with others. However, there is also a place in my spirit, especially lately, that has just had enough of people's opinions and useless lines regarding pregnancy.

Today, I was having a conversation with a friend about our upcoming transfer. It just so happens this friend and her husband are about to start trying for baby #2. How lovely! Do people really do that? PLAN when to have sex so they will conceive? What's that like? I don't think my husband and I even relate sex and having a baby anymore. Have sex to have a baby? Who does that?

Anyway, the subject of the hot summer came up, and she made the statement that if it didn't happen immediately in July or August, they would just have to stop trying until her pregnancy wouldn't fall within the hottest summer months. How convenient. No worries about aging eggs or worrying about using all of your vacation time or making up work hours or the busy times of the month because there will be countless trips out of town for blood draws, ultrasounds, etc. They will just stop trying until it's more convenient. All of a sudden, I found myself sitting there with my throbbing and knotted Progesterone hip saying "well, I just pray it all works out exactly the way you want it....and I pray you never have to go thru HELL and back to get pregnant because this is no cake walk, especially these shots."

Then she said THIS.

"Well, you have to go through a certain amount of that when you actually have the baby anyway, ya know? Those epiderals are no fun."

What could I even say to that? Seriously?!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Transfer scheduled

We are looking forward to our transfer! It will be Tuesday @ 1:30.

Tuesday's appointment went great. My lining was at a 13, which is excellent, and my E2 level was at 720. Dr S. was happy with those numbers.

I also got to meet up with one of my sweet bloggie friends, Deni from Foxy Troxies. We had the best time talking about IVF, our fur babies, and little Miss Cala Faye, who I can't wait to meet. Deni is a ray of sunshine, and I feel like we've been friends forever. Meeting her was the highlight of my day.

We'll be staying in Dallas after the transfer so I can relax and let those two little embies snuggle in!

I can't wait to be PUPO (pregnant until proven otherwise.)

Right now, I'm taking 100 mls of Progesterone every night, a steroid pill in the morning, an antibiotic morning and night, and a prenatal vitamin.

And just as a random thought, if I hear one more pregnant person on my Facebook complain about the heat, I might just smack them with a sandwich....after I invite them over to share in the luxury of a Progesterone shot in the rear.

Over and out!